Fucking religious geeks stealing my site address!

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Well, today I attempted to access my blog when all of a sudden I was taken to ANOTHER site, claiming to have the SAME web address as MY blog, and worse yet, IT'S A FUCKING BIBLE SITE! JARGH! I think I will write to them and tell them to get fucked and find their own web address, cuddlypanda is ALREADY MINE! Or maybe I've been spywared. Either way, I'm not fucken happy. I hate religion. If this continues I will be willing fire and explosions upon them. Bastards. Let 'em have a dose of their OWN medicine.

In other new.... OMG IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS AND I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! AHHHHHH!

No other news. My life is boring, really ;)

Panda!

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Greasy food and a warm bed is what I need :'(

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It's officially one of those days. One of those days where all you want to do is crawl under a mountain of blankets with a bucket of KFC and something chocolatey, with some really depressed "why me" music on and sulk yourself to sleep. No kidding. It all just got a little too much for me today. For the first time ever I haven't been able to finish all of my work in time. I still have some things that the staff wanted me to type up and print but I just can't fit it in. The pressure just crashed down on me today and I couldn't take it anymore. It made it worse too that they were accusing me of having 7 days off work when I only had 5, so they were ready to take 4 days pay from me (because I had only 1 sick day left and they'd taken 2 from last pay already). Then they dump the phones on me while I'm desperately trying to get overdue work done and nobody would give me a break or help me at all. I got to the point where I just could not move I was so stressed out and so now I sit in solitude in the client computer room, away from everyone and the phones so I can concentrate, calm down and get work done.

Tonight is a fast food night, no doubt about it. Either maccas or KFC. I need it badly. And a pack of bounty fun size bars. And a malibu and a pack of smokes. And some Tomb Raider. Yeah I'll be all set then. Fuck Christmas shopping. I know I've done little but not in my state, no way. Or maybe should, Jesse's coming over tomorrow and I won't have the time. We'll see if I can handle the christmas crowd or not.

Yours in depression, Panda

Mwahahahaha... Oh the irony is killing me!

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I just find this so hilarious:

Yesterday, Rosi, my workmate, was on her computer, complaining that her computer was ridiculously slow. She picked up TWO viruses from somewhere. Not one, two. Now this is funny becuase a) she's behind a LAN which is firewalled at the connection to the net, b) she has the windows sp2 firewall enabled, AND c) has antivirus.

Just goes to show: YOU CAN'T SUBSTITUTE CAUTION, EXPERIENCE & KNOWLEDGE WITH "PROTECTIVE" SOFTWARE!

I beg you all... Just be careful online. Because it's all a fucking major waste of money for this software, especially if you're gonna be dumb and open that .exe attached to your email anyway.

Brains people! You usually have 90% of it usunused, put it to good use!

Links

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Some links I must looke at that Jesse gave me:
http://it.slashdot.org/comments.pl?sid=132719&cid=11081334
http://www.sun.com/sunray/sunray170/index.xml
Gotta go to work now!

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Bored, so I decided to start making text characters:
.(\_/)
=(o.O)=
.(( . ))
.(_|_)

(>"<)
0", )
.(Y(,)
/_|_|

.( )( )
=(o.O)=
.(( . ))
.(_|_)
How these will appear in the blog I don't know. I guess I wll find out.
Update: Had to use dots to align things correctly. Let's try that again.

Access my arse

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No that title is NOT an invitation to access my arse.... What I mean is "Pfft, Microsoft "ACCESS", my fucking arse!" It sucks. I'm frightened and confused by it. I mean, it couldn't be too hard to add simple functionality like additem and removeitem to the menu, would it? I mean, they don't even have functionality for things they use themselves!

For small business and single users my arse. When Microsoft make access cleaner then they can say that :\

Panda in a beverage! 

The trail ends at a dead end. Ultimately

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I was fairly sleepless last night.... Everything seemed to just rush into my brain at once, and then I thought of my life in ten years.... Would I be married and having a kid? Would I be depressed and single? Would everything have turned upside down and my reality just torn to shreds? I don't know. Thinking that much in advance scares the shit out of me. I like my independance but I'm far from ready to grow up and grow old. It just seemed so empty, the outlook. I wonder if I will look at my life in retrospect in the same way that I look at my bank account: "Where on earth did it all go?"

I dunno what my bigger fear is: a death which is followed by nothing or looking back and wondering where did it all go.

I wonder if age gives us wisdom about death and comfort in it rather than fear. I can only possibly think that only the scared, naive, uneducated or terminally ill could find comfort in it.

Death is the reason we have our alcoholics, murderers, psychos and paedophiles. Because ultimately, if nothing follows, it really isn't going to matter. Bleak, but possibly true. I have plenty of reason to be sceptical but very little reason to hope.

Tips for the day

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Don't ever blog on your boyfriend's friend's blog (my friend too). Because it is highly likely that they will read it, despite the fact that they never ever read yours. Sad really. Makes me sad. Well, at least I am almost certain that I could write anything here and he would never know. Either because he has typically forgotten the web address, or he quite simply cares not enough to read. Either way, it shows me a certain amount of... WHat's the world, Dammit I can't think... Well there's definitely a lack of interest in my thoughts, that's quite sure. It may not be deliberate, but y'know, when you're realy curious about what someone is thinking, you do what you can to know what they are thinking. It's part of the human condition. A blog is a golden opportunity to see a person's thoughts, struggles, and feelings, right there, plain as day. Well, I do that in my spoken life anyway I guess but he does not hear me. There are no lines to read between. It's right there. Everything. And in the end, if there is no obscurity then what is left is blindness on the other's behalf.

What can I say... He's blind. Annoys me to no end.

Next tip for the day- don't even bother getting into a fight with someone who is partial to your thoughts and feelings, because you will just end up kneeling facing a brick wall, bashing you head as hard as you can over and over, mashing your forehead into a bloody mess. Your mind will be so tired that it will go numb. Your jaw will be so bored that it willl just lock up and refuse to open. That is what it is like to argue with my boyfriend.

Any ideas for arguing with a bot of a person?

As you may tell.... I was reading over past conversations, and I remember what it was like...

Don't ever battle with a printer without wearing gloves

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Hi,
Thought I'd blog
Because I can't be f@cked typing these client minutes up. I think Cheryl has run away with the calendar I was making because I f@cked up on the Marriott Matters newsletter. I got one date wrong and a torrent of damn parent calls come in. Joy for me.
I've decided that Homestar Runner is my character for the month. I've changed all of my iconage, sounds, and my wallpaper to homestar crap. I'm even making a Homestar t shirt. Wow... I'm so easily manipulated by cute and weird little characters, they just make me want to adorn my life in images of my character of the month. Last month was the tare panda. I was about to download and send off an order form for Homestar merhcandise then i realise the absurdity.

In other news: My printer and I got into a fierce battle last night. It was flashing at me, requesting maintenace. I decided to go in there with my bare hands. Read somewhere that request for maintenace meant changing or washing the waste ink pads so I decided to do that. Ended up take apart the cartridge holder return inside the printer before realising that you didn't need to to access the wast ink pads. I got the thing back together, but forgot where one little extra spring went. The printer wasn't fussed, but it still reg'd the same issue, which was unrelated. Dang. So I have designs to go buy myself a print/scan multifunction. I've seen them around for about $210. Either that or I'll be a tightarse and buy them seperately. In fact, wtf am I talking about, it's cheaper seperate! Tightarse Panda strikes back!

Anyone want a broken Epson Stylus c20ux? I'm sure it's not too broken but I can't be f@cked calling up epson and getting it fixed. It served me well throughout my year 12 studio arts and I think it may be time to say goodbye. Such a shame, it was only 2 years old...

Now, as for getting this black ink off my hands...