Homestar Runner

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I just did the Homestar Runner character test. Apparently, this is me:

Take the Homestar Runner Character Quiz by Coach Vee!

To find out about Homestar Runner, go to www.homestarrunner.com, and to take the personality test, go to http://www.maxisoul.fsnet.co.uk/hsr/quiz/ . have fun!

Dozy and lazy days

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Yay, I found myself a place where they have pdf converters which aren't as much as a rip off as adobe acrobat!
http://www.thebeatlesforever.com/processtext/abctxt.html
It converts many many files to .pdf, except the one that I need and noone knows exists- .GDS. Probably doesn't deserve to exist with an extension like that :P
It's a project studio project. It's very handy because everything is so easily manipulated but I can't email things out in that format. Highly annoying. Oh well.

I'm in one of those warm, dozy, fuzzy moods. It feels good.

I think I was being a little nihilistic this week. I really do like it here and they do treat me well. I think being tired has been doing strange things to my mind, and it seems complaining is the easiest way to relieve myself. Silly really.

Can't wait until tonight. Hayley, Sarah (friend from VCE, not sister) and I are going to the Depot to watch a Bon Jovi cover band. It is our intention, nay, our mission, to stay awake until closing. It's gonna be difficult because I am already tired. I think I will snooze when I get home. Hmmmm, better get some dinner and drinks for the girls first.

Anyway, I'd better get back to doing the newsletter.

Life is good. :D

Bring me cuddles or bring me death!!!

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I'm tired. Sore. Confused. No, it's not my bleak view of the world maing me this way but some sort of headache-flu thing that is being passed from person to person. I have this dull ache covering my scull and I can't concentrate. Makes working very hard I assure you.
I want sleep. The office is unkind today. I want a soft naked Jesse to cuddle up to which I can lay on and drift into a sweet warm fuzzy sleep. I don't think that sleep gets any better than that.
You know I think that my willingness to take on any job is really exploited in this office sometimes, as much as I hate to think it. All work that nobody wants to do is given to me and it gets a little annoying. For example, I'm working on the newsletter, two databases (which were free will but they need to be done), I have to get people out for quotes to get the carpet cleansed here, AND there are f@cking THREE office people on today and they ask ME to take all incoming calls. I think that last one is a bit rude. I love working here but to think that I'm being taken for a ride is a little insulting, even given my level in this workplace.

So I'm down in the dumps today. I want cuddles, a hot chocolate and some sleep. Pizza would be good too :P
Keep on going, tha'ts all you can do, despite your circumstances. Not that they're bad, but I always looked at it like this- good bigger things happen for me, but shitty little things happen within these good things. I guess everyone has to expect that and there's no getting around it! I am lucky. Doesn't mean I can't have a good whinge in the mean time.

Frightened and Confused

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Hmmm... We just got our new phone system in.. I'm frightened and confused :S
How the f@ck am I going to get used to this?! I'm absolutely bewildered. Not sure what to think. Not sure how to feel. Not sure if I can go on in this world. My universe has been tipped upside down.
Oh Lord O Mighty please, help me find my purpose!

I've figure it out

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I've figured it out. I tried to ignore it but it won't go away.
People are:

stupid

Ignorant

Set in their ways

Loudmouths

Self centred

Whinging

I've lost all faith in them. I'm ashamed to be a part of people. Every human being deserves a slap across the face. They whinge but won't take advice. They claim to help others yet can't stop talking about themselves. They appear reserved but won't shut up given the chance. People with PhDs are still stupid if they can't get away from all of this.

I wish I were, literally, an angel.. Then atleast what I said might get through to people and I could make a difference.

twiddling my thumbs and pissed off

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Hi people,

I promised myself that I'd do solid work today. I said I wouldn't sign into MSN messenger. I tell you what it's BLOODY HARD WHEN ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS TWIDDLE YOUR THUMBS!!!
I could be good. I could do work for seven hours straight with the occasional break for a frothy hot chocolate. But there's no work. So instead I write in my blog, download the occasional thing and talk to Jesse. I actually vowed not to sign in today because I have the sh!ts with him. I don't ever imagine him reading this blog so it doesn't really matter what the hell I write here.
I'm conflicted inside. I hate things going wrong for other people. It makes me feel good to see people who feel like I've helped them get some clarity. It's just me, I love helping people. It makes me extremely uncomfortable watching people fumble, especially after f@cking flat out telling them how to help themselves. I get the shits with people when they don't take my advice, and I don't think it's because I feel insulted but because I am able to see how people will f@ck themselves up and I offer solutions. When they don't take them I know I'll be able to just sigh and say "I told you so" whenever it happens, not to be a smart @rse but because I really knew it was going to happen. This happens with Jesse ALL THE TIME. It shits me.
I am conflicted because I don't know if I reserve the right to be sh!tty about it.
I feel like I do. I'm not personally angry about it but it does make me so frustrated generally. I seriously feel like breaking something.It's so frustrating when people don't listen, I mean how hard is it?
Actually, I think it's because I don't get a justification as to why he won't listen. If he had another plan, or atleast some extremely vague direction that seems half logical then I think I would be ok. This happens with mates as well. They don't listen and they fuck up. End up cheating on their partners. End up at the doctor getting a pap smear from unprotected sex.

I mean, c'mon, am I crazy? How hard is it to save yourself? It's not! Listen to those close to you and maybe you might get somewhere. (that's a general toward my people, not directed at you guys!)

Tired, sore and dying for the weekend to arrive

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Hello peoples,
I'm at work again. Lloma is out. I'm tired, and my lower back has been aching for weeks now. I really should go get it checked- I can't touch my toes anymore which i could easily have done a few weeks ago. I think it was sleeping in the boyfriend's bed for two weeks- he has a futon bed and it's extremely hard, it's just a futon mattress, not an innerspring. It hasn't been right since. Plus there's hereditary back problems in the family so this is just a little alarming.

F@(k I hate daylight savings. It throws my entire routine out of line. I usually get up at 7.30, and I can handle that. But technically, now that the clocks have gone forward an hour, I'm getting up at 6.30. Time seems to move so quickly in the evening time, before you know it, it's 11pm. I also tend to sleep in an extra few hours when daylight savings starts. I love sleeping in, but it means I'm so tired when I have to wake up early for work.

Well that;s my general whinge for the day.

Good luck to all you poor VCE peoples out there- I know it's hard but once it's over, and you're all over the "OMG this is the next stage of my life", it's going to be sooo much better. I love my job, I love having my uni placement and scholarship waiting for me next year, and I love being on my own, independant, plenty of cash. Everything has fallen into a perfect balance, and now that I've said that something bad will probably happen. Meh, it can't last forever.

Mmmmm... can't wait to see my Jesse tonight. Then tomorrow I gotta drive the hours back to Yea and Kinglake to visit my father for his birthday, because I totally forgot about his birthday on 28th October. Man I feel like sh!t for that.

Anyway, better find some random work to do,

Ta, Panda =(o.O)=